Sometimes it realli takes an outsider to point out to you all the things that you take for granted...So thanks Christine for constantly reminding me of how much my parents love me and my sis...Especially my mum...I cannot deny having a relatively more antagonistic and contemptuous? relationship with her but recently i'm beginning to realize how she's always been there in the background for me and how she gives and gives unceasingly to us and i can just brush it all off as part and parcel of a mother's duty...How obnoxious and ungrateful of me!

As they grow older and i grow older too, i'm gonna try to show more love and care for them...Even if it means throwing aside all internalizations of male machoismo bullshit to hug them, kiss them and tell them i love them...What a pack of bull society is sometimes...to construct emotional restraint and inhibition as hegemonic masculinity and to socialize all males into becoming the "strong, silent type". After all, what's the point in saying "i love you" only after a loved one passes on? That's not displaying strength, that's outright stupidity...And i shall endeavour this year to not let such foolishness continue for me anymore...